Thursday, March 26, 2009

Being me...

Assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera...

u know what..this past few days, I've been really annoyed with certain someone. I have gone thru hard times before n as i recall, she's the one asking me bout my not so fascinating life. Yes..at that time i talk bout my problem, i know some people gets really annoyed with me that they turn their head away from me. I know. I wasnt asking for sympathy tho.Just pouring my heart out. But after few times talking bout my problems, my so called friends..keep themselves invisible n ran away when im around. How does that makes me feel? Sad of course but what can i do? I cant stop them from doing what they've done now can i? Thing is, my problems was never a lie/made up. It was the whole truth. I didnt go looking for other man's sympathy n starts having feelings for them. It never crossed my mind to do such thing. Why? No matter how ignorant my husband was at that time, he is still my husband.

I didnt lie to my friends about my problems. It was never a made up version just to get people to notice me. It was real. To this so called FRIEND, Please stop pretending or making up things. Stop all ur lies before it consumes u. Now lets see..u said u have stopped all the communications with ur used to be admirer. Guess what..all ur smses, was forwarded to me. U said it was the other guy who scolded u bout posting ur "love life" in ur blog, but.. soon after u told me, i found out it was ur-used-to-be-admirer who scolded u. So whats with the fooking lies? Do i look stupid to u? like maybe u can just tell me anything n i was dumb enough to believe every words u said? Sadly, yes..at that time, I was so devoted to u. trying to lend u my shoulder most of the time. I listen to every thing u have to tell(or TALE) me. I have never for once think that im the greatest friend ever. No sireee. NEVER! I know what i've done. N god knows how many people i've hurt just to be me!

This is not a revenge my friend. I didnt do what u think im doing now to avenge what u guys have done to me before. No. I'm only being me. I might not have the most desirable figure like u guys, or pretty face or fancy dresses, but i know how to weight facts n lies. Ur stories..i repeat STORIES, have some loose ends my friend. I have known bout what u've done for quite sometimes but lets just say, i was being nice at that time. Willing to shove it all away coz i was still trying to put the pieces together..but some of ur puzzle doesn't match. Inviting doubts n confusions to my not so genius head.

So if u think im being a snob for just being me, so be it. It doesn't matter. N talking about me behind my back is soo not cool. TY for the pahala.

noreez™

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Kepohchee-ism n Baby!

Assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera sumer...

I was reading thru friends/acquaintances blogs...n got myself stuck on La Signora's blog. there i was reading each n every one entry that i missed n when i got to 1 entry, i felt like i MUST leave a comment. Entry titled "One More Time". I wasnt sure what she meant with one more time at first but after the sentence "....incessant questions about WHEN I'm going to be a babymama." I already know what its gonna be. hehe

I'm not going to say, whatever she said is wrong.NO! infact, /me 100% agrees with her opinion on this matter. About being a Malay n kepohchee. I am a Malay, but some malay attitudes toward sensitive issues can be rather annoying n irritating.

In this case, the baby issue. To me it is a very sensitive matter that needs to be kept between husband n wife n let be. Stop with the question " bila nk dpt baby?" suka hati org lah bila dia nk beranak. yg ko kecoh apasal? sakit ati ko? x kan?? hahaha

Mannn did she(La Signora) do a research on Malay Kephochee-ism or what..she even have every FAQ by Malay-Kepohchee to another Malay. hahah. Which is absolutely true.

Back to the mentioned issue-Baby, who in the foooooking world yg x nk anak? lemme know..lemme knock some sense into their head. Thing is, even if org nk anak, are they well prepared? Mentally n financially? Waking up to a hungry baby every 2-3 hours every nite, diapers, medical bills, milk, foods, baju lagik! N baju baby nowadays, dah sama harga ngan sehelai baju adult. n toys lagi, dont tell me u r gonna buat toys sendiri? Its not a remeh temeh punya issue OKAY!!!

The next time u wanna ask people, "Bile nk dpt baby nih?" please...THINK! do u think after u ask 'em, they'll get a baby the next day?? huh? huh?
N please..they r already pressured by close relatives n family members..what makes u think that ur questions makes any difference?
oh, btw, leave a PCOS women alone as well. If u must know, PCOS is a penyakit. go Google it to find out more. I am one of em women with pcos/pcod. If u r pregnant, n u wanna share the good news..its fine with me..just dont go asking me, "so when is ur turn?
or "so, when is ur daughter gonna get adik?" should u ask me that..sile blah!

sick n tired

Assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera sumer..

This is a story about a friend. To my eyes(before) she's the most unfortunate human being on planet earth. But then, she's just another attention seeker who couldn't think of anything else to do but seek attention from her friends.

Cmon woman! Enough is enough! U know, people can understand why u r doing what ur doing, but please, no one is too dumb to actually believe in u 100%. At least not anymore.

U talk n complain most of the time. Fine. We listen to u most of the time. Fine. We sympathize with u most of the time. Fine. We didn't for a bit expect u to lie to us. Fine. But truth be told, god knows what you've been telling us. True story? Or a tad too imaginative?? Wallahua'lam.

Whatever it is woman, i only have 1 thing to tell u, watdefek ur trying to prove? that u lead a very sad n lonely life? that among all the orphans, abused womens, poor people in this world that u r still the most unfortunate human being???

Stop it or risk losing friends. But im sure someone like u, have like kajillion friends. So maybe u dont care bout us. N another thing, u know..in this world, not a single human, who wakes up everyday without a single thing to worry em. Human+Problem=life. So if u expect us to go running to ur side everytime u feels lonely, forget it. We too have problems of our own.

Thats all for now.
cheers!
noreez™

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Things to do....DONE!

Assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera sumer...

I am so very sleepy at this moment. I haven't slept since half past 2 yesterday! Thought of going to bed earlier but I have to put that thought on hold for i have things to do that needs to be settled before i could even think of resting my eyes n o yeah, my brain too. LOL

Things have been really great lately.Home-wise n cyber-wise. It feels really good to have people who can relate to u about almost anything in life. I have a new Mah online,new Sisters, new nieces, new nephews, new friends!

O yeah, back to why i must not sleep yet. I was busy baking! Must get everything done by today for some photography session later. Baked Marble Cheese Brownies n Classic Chocolate Chips Cookies! Started baking at 4 something in the morning! Somewhere in my mind I was telling myself that I musta been crazy, out of my mind. But i was too excited to see the outcome of my early morning-half awake baking results that i pushed the idea away. Away away! Now, dont worry, i didnt burn myself or the house for that matter. Thank GOD! Nor did i hurt our cat or Princess!But i do think that i did something to our downstairs neighbour tho. Well, the accidental(was it really accidental? *evilish grin*) bangging of my baking pan, the noise my ever trusty mixer made n such. Guess they just have to bear it then. hehehe

Why do u ask i was baking n whats with the photography session? eheh..Thats part of the upcoming surprise. So for now, just pretend like u know. OK? LOL
Honestly, I'll let u guys know latest by Monday.

The brownies turn out to be so yummy,very rich n i have my trusty tester to confirm it.
The cookies as usual..very chewy. Love em chewy.

Think, thats all for now. I am VERY VERY SLEEPY! I can hardly think of what to type next.
Will update u guys on my latest project soon.

Till next entry.
cheers!!
noreez™(^^,)

Friday, March 20, 2009

Kick Arse Commercial!

This Video from youtube was posted in a forum in ChatsUSA. It really is incredible that i cant just leave it alone. MUST share with u guys. lol

I love it n so does Princess!

Here goes.ENJOY!



Till next entry.
cheers!!
noreez™(^^,)

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Updates???

Assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera sumer.

Dah lama gak x update blog aku ni. Bukannyer, x der citer..citer ader..tp cam mls arr nk diciterkan.
Ader yg sangat melampau dan boleh mengundang Hypertension dan ader yg remeh temeh dan mengundang sedikit rasa annoying dlm jiwa.

Ntah lah, selagi manusia bernama manusia, ader jer bende yg dorang akan buat utk menyakitkan ati manusia lain. N selagi manusia bernama manusia jugak, sesetengah nyer, mmg suke mengambil kesempatan atas kebaikan seseorang hinggakan dah x der batas nyer langsung, seolah manusia yg lagi satu tu diwujudkan untuk memberi kesenangan abadi pada diri dia.

Citer² aku ni, cuma lizz , dla, zimy n some of em Azlan, jer yg tau. org lain, samada buat² nk tau tp sebenarnyer x peduli langsung, atau peduli tapi malas nk ambik tau,atau paling kejinyer, x nak ambik tau langsung. huhuhu agak² korang kategori maner satu?aku x nak tau.huhuhu

Aper²pun aku harap korang sumer, sihat walafiat, bertambah rezeki, bertambah matang, bertambah pahala yg paling penting.

Disebabkan kebusy-an aku skang ni, aku harap x der lah org yg akan merindui pena tajam² tumpul aku ni yer.

Anyway, tu jer lah for this time.
Till next entry.

Cheers!!
noreez™(^^,)

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Lunch!

Assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera sumer..

Arini td , aku "rajin" sket. Salunyer awal² dah masak utk Dla buat bekal. Tp semlm aku terlebih rajin, so..masak tgh ari td ler, dgn harapan aku nyer mood nk masak akan berubah. tp, x dernyer nk berubah. hahaha

Disebabkan itu jugak, aku buat spaghetti bolognaise. Yelah, senang jer kan, sos dia yg dah siap from bottle tu, then aku add mince beef, sliced mushrooms n stewed tomatoes. kan senang tu?? hehe

Sebenarnyer, minggu lepas dah mkn spaghetti gak, tp dak² kat umah ni, syok lak mkn spaghetti. Yelah, rasenyer, last week tu x puas makan rasanyer.Aku lak, biasalah, rajin ler aku masak kalau dorang request nk makan paper.<--alasan arr..aku sebenarnyer malas giler! masak nk mudah jer..ehek!

N..nilah hasil kemalasan aku hari ni. hehehe


Emosi

Assalamualaikum n salam sejahtera sumer...

Aper nk di ceritakan, aku pun x sure. Patut ker aku citer bende yg berlaku kat rumah aku beberapa hari yg lepas? or should i just shut it?

X per lah..malas arr nk ckp. yelah.. aku tau aku x ckp..aku type jer. hehe
Anyway, ari senin aritu..aku marah giler! beberapa saat lepas kejadian aku terus call Dla, n mlm tu lak..terus ngadu kat Azlan. Tensi²!

Mcm ni jln citer yg sebenarnyer. Awal thn aritu, aku dah setuju nk mengajar anak jiran aku. Kire cam tusyen, tp lebih pd monitoring homework dia. xtra stuff tu belajar kalau dia x der homework atau kalau dia x ke sekolah aritu. Plan awal, belajar setiap hari, Isnin - Jumaat, mula kol 3 dan waktu abis blajar..x tentu lah..kenkadang 2 jam..kenkadang sejam lebih. tp, x nah ler kurang dr sejam.

So sejak dr start skolah aritu, aku dah mula mengajar budak ni, setiap hari kecuali hari Rabu, sebab hari Rabu dia der kokurikulum kat skolah. Well, first few weeks after kokurikulum dia start, mak dia still hantar dia jugak walaupun masa tu dah kol 6 ptg. aku agak x sedap ati jugak ler bile dah anta time² tu. Bkn aper..time² Princess balik dr skolah tu. N masa tu aku akan luangkan utk ajar/ monitor Princess wat homework plak.

Nk di jadikan cerita, ari selasa aritu, (aku mmg x tau yg anak dia ader exam kat skolah. kire minggu ni minggu exam ler.) korang tau kol baper anak dia ketuk pintu umah aku? kol 1 lebih. balik² jer dr skolah, dia kerah anak dia mandi n terus ketuk pintu umah aku. rambut budak tu still basah lencun lagi. Aku memula ingat, dia nk pinjam apaper ker..sebab mmg selalu lah dia ketuk nk pinjam barang. Bukan nk kater umah aku banyak brg nk di bagi pinjam, tp kalau ader tu, insya-Allah aku bg jer kat dia. Balik pd citer ketuk pintu kol 1 lebih td, aku pun bukak pintu lah, tgk² anak dia, dgn buku kat tgn. Aku pun panic, ingatkan jam umah aku x jln. Tgk kat PC betul..belum kol 2 lagi masa tu. SO terus aku tanyer.
Aku: Dah nk start belajar ker??
Anak dia : Haah. Nk start belajar dah.
Aku: Tp aunty x mkn nasik lagi nih.
Anak dia: (jerit) Mama!!!!!!! aunty Nor x mkn nasik lagi!!!!!!!!!
Dia: HA,X PERLAH! MASUK DULU!!!(jerit jugak padahal rumah 3 langkah jer dr umah aku)

So aku terus tutup pintu n tukar baju yg decent sikit. Masa aku tukar baju tu..sempat call DLA, n Nuwal. Then Nuwal call balik ler. Bile dorang dengar jer aku ngah bercakap, terus dia soh anak dia ketuk pintu aku balik. masa tu baru kol 2 lebih sikit. So x perlah..aku pun bg ler masuk padahal x mkn lagi masa tu. So mule mengajar lah. Masa tu..anak dia ckp kat aku, "Aunty, Mama ckp, hari ni kena belajar lama² sebab x mengaji." aku pun cam..HUH?!?!!
senyap..aku teruskan ngajor dia. Mathematic, subjek favorite aku-Fraction.

Mesti korang pelik kan? Naper aku nk marah?.. aku marah sebab , neighbour aku ni mmg suke ambik kesempatan kat aku. Aku tau dia ambik kesempatan, tp aku x reti nk ckp kat dia yg aku x suke dia buat mcm tu. Aku mengajar anak dia ngan ikhlas tanpa bayaran, beberapa minggu lepas, dia tinggalkan anak dia dan kawan anak dia soh belajar kat umah aku. aku yg terpinga² x tau aper dah berlaku..terpaksa terima jer.

Entahlah. Aku x reti nk ckp TAK kat org. Selagi mampu, aku dulukan.

tu jer lah aku nk mengomel arinih. lenkali citer lain lak.

til next entry.
Cheers!!
noreez™(^^,)